I Hate My.....

As a stay at home mom of three kids I have noticed something....now this is not something i just noticed. It is something I have being seeing in myself for a while....I HATE MY BODY!!!! I know I know many women out there hate their bodies too, so maybe you can relate. Now my kids are getting older and they are always doing something, which means so am I. I take them swimming, this makes me hate my body even more...I take them to the park, and their sport events, I even jump on the trampoline with them, yes this makes me hate my body even more. I see women who are naturally shaped well even after having kids and doing nothing, this makes me hate my body even more, I see the women who have the discipline to workout (I am so jealous of them) and this makes me hate my body even more. Get the point if not you never will. Now my husband says he loves me the way I am....in my head I hear I love you no matter how chubby you get. Which is great and all and I love him for it but what I don't think guys get is that I DON'T LIKE MY BODY!!!! and guess what guys it is OK for you to tell us you like us the way we are but our opinion of ourselves matters too!!!! So, I am determined to like my body at least a little more than I do now. Now I don't want to be a stick I am a women and darn it I am going to look like one!!! I don't want to be able to share my daughters clothes or even wear a bikini (I am way to white for that). I just want to feel good for me. So here is what I have been trying...eating lots of fruits RAW, not out of a can. Eating less of what I would normally eat this means chocolate, and this is the hardest one for me I love chocolate. I have gotten a bit smaller which has made me feel better, but I still see the big me in the mirror. I am sticking with the fruits and hope to be happier and happier, now the way I know I need to stop is when my bra gets to big on me...When the girls start getting smaller I am done. Again I don't want to be a stick or look like a teenage boy! So wish me luck and to all out there going through the same thing I understand!!! You are in no means alone, if you don't believe me take a poll go up to as many moms as you know and ask them honestly do you like your body? You may be surprised to see how many of us there are...